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haben been updating moi blog for quite some time le..cuz i din hv e mood to update it..here r e things dat happen e pass few daes..[26/05]fri..went to school until 1045..first few lessons was mt den after dat spring cleaning e claz rm until 10 plus den get report bk..mt lessons was bored for mi..so end up slping all e way..den cleaning e claz rm was damn boring..dunno y tis yr hv to clean e wall..wad's e used..in the end cum back to sch also will dirty again mahx..y muz we clean e walls..past few yrs also no nid to clean..y tis yr???sianx diao..den after cleaning..wait for teacher to give us report bk lorx..haix..as i expect..my claz n lvl position drop..haix..hu ask i fail so mani sub..got 21/40 for claz n 24/67 for lvl..haix..but wad's e pt..though not last position but din even pass e overall..haix..but gonna work harder bahx..heex..after dat went hm first den after dat went to meet yvon alas n tg to go eat sakae sushi at west mall..we meet lz at bukit batok mrt dere..cuz she got direct bus dere..heex..haix..again eat sushi..i gonna get fatter n fatter le..haix..we crap n chit chat..blahx..den after dat go to arcade to play..long time nv go le..hv lots of fun playing..heex..after dat walk walk den jiu go back..meet my aunt at boonlay mrt dere n go back wif her..thought of going to walk walk at jp but too bad..heex..sat n sun wad was bored..nth to do den to study..arrrgh..sianx..mon[29/05]..frenz r taking o lvl chinese n i was slping at hm until 12 plus..ting fang msg mi at 2plus lyk dat tell mi got co..but i din go..was lazy n i go dere also so bored..thought co will end after speech day..meaning for sec4 n 5 lahx but dunno y dey tell mi tis yr is until after national day den sec4s n 5s no nid to go..lyk wad e lorx..we shld be preparing for prelim n o lvl le..y stil hv to go ccA..???haix..but no choice lahx..since dey sae muz go..but i skip for e dae bahx..heex..toda..got eng mass lecture n ss mass lecture..was abit quite boring n de hall was damn hot..arrrgh..but e tip de teachers give was quite useful for eng..hope i can do beta for eng bahx..haix..dun wanna fail it again..sianx..ss teacher taught a new topic but is not new for us sec5s cuz we learn it last yr le..but can help us recap e chpt..actually after lunch break got eng mock exam..but in e end is eng mass lecture again..cuz dere r stil tips dat e teacher wanna tell us..den dey thought of hving after e mass lecture but in e end cancel..do it as hmwk..hahaz..after dat jiu went hm den after dat meet linda n lz at jp library to study..yf came lata..after studying yf father send us hm..so gd..heex..haix..tmrw got chem lesson n mathx..plus eng mock exam paper 2..haix..sianx..tis whole week hv to go to sch..sianx lahx..tired..but teacher also xi shen their time for us..so cun complain..hope sat faster cum..cuz meeting u guys to go to habour front to shop so qi dai..hahaz..cun wait until sat..next wk stil got co camp n e following wk go for claz chalet..hahaz..so qi dai all tis..heex..think i go study a bit more den jiu go rest le..tmrw stil hv to go to sch in e morning..buai...=]

mi n lz at jp library..=]

10:28 PM;

haben been updating blog since i got back moi midyr results..thx to u guys for encouraging mi n giving e support when i was down..wun give up on moi studies de..i promise u all..heex..went back to school on mon..lesson was damn boring..b4 recess all e lessons are mt..i dun hv mt le..so was damn boring..den after dat 2 hrs is other two sub..post examination activities r damn boring sia..got nth much to do..n some more is for e whole wk..but anyway is e last wk of sch le..heex..on mon..juz found out from sec4s dat mr wong pass away during his sleep at 1am[shld be] in the morning on mon..cuz shi han received a msg from vivian den also check wif mrs ng..haix..sad sia..a teacher who served our sch for 40yrs..though he din teach mi any subject..but he was moi hse master..de sch din announce tis until toda..wonder y??..is lyk so mani daes le..ytd went wif jia jt n liting to e wake..meet cp at np dere den walk together to e place.. when reach dere we saw mani ex students for various batch..after dat went to bukit timah market dere to makan..den after dat took taxi back cuz was around 9 plus le..den if we take bus back will be quite long..reach hm abt 2145 lyk dat..ytd was feeling not veri well..whole dae in sch kip sneezing den coughing..reach hm after e wake..having sore throat..wad de..juz one mth b4 den i hv fever..den now again..sian diao..jia also was not feeling well ytd..hope she also take care wor..heex..todaes lesson was damn boring..got nth to do other den de motivation talk..cuz b4 recess is mt..den after recess is motivation talk plus talk on o lvl mt den mathx throughout until sch end..but some of us who take o lvl chinese le..juz go for e motivation talk dats all..den no mathx lesson cuz mr lee nv cum..den was lyk co form take over which is also our claz de chinese teacher..den was lyk hving chinese lesson again..so it was boring..den got e timetable for study camp..wad de..everydae also hv to go to school..so sianx..somemore got english mock test..haix..is so boring..holidae??na..dun think tis yr would hv holidae bahx..cuz hv to kip studying..after o lvl den is holidaes for mi bahx..haix..but muz realli buck up bahx..e motivation talk was by a gal name grace..she suffer from ds..but she manage to talk to us abt her life n tis hv motivated mi n most ppl bahx..is lyk though she suffer from sickness but she stil manage to carry on wif her life..go to sch..take examx blahx blahx..she even took on challenges..listening to her talk i find dat she has e courage..n a veri strong will..haix..if i could hv e courage lyk her..n e strong will..may be i shld also tried damn hard bahx..n not to give up when i encounter prob..heex..learn lots of things for e talk..at first thought e talk would be quite boring..n din wanna cum to sch toda..but i m happi dat i came to sch todae..heex..after sch went to boonlay dere to hv lunch wif yf km yvon tg alas..den i go to library den i cum back hm n slp..den wake up hving headache..sianx la..hate being sick though sometime i wanna be sick so dat i nid not go to sch but is veri de xin ku..haix..think i would end here le..i wanna rest le..buai...=]

7:45 PM;

i had a super bad dae toda..got back all moi examz results..n it totally sux..fail damn a lot of subjects..n how m i suppose to pass o lvls..though ppl kip telling mi mid yr not tat important n it would not be counted in o lvls..but wif tis kinda results how i m suppose to believe tat i m able to pass o lvl..onli a school exam i m unable to do well..so wad i m suppose to get in o lvls..shld hv juz do moi n lvl badly n go straight to ite??y for waste time cuming back here to waste moi time n may be i will go back to ite in the end..i juz dunno..feel lyk crying but dunno y cun..haix..lots of things went through moi mind when e papers cum back..one after another look even worse..though i noe dat i m weak in dat particular subject but i din execpt to fail e paper until tis bad..i study so hard..put in lots of effort but in the end wad's e result..i dun not noe wad to sae lorx..work hard also not use..wad e hell m i suppose to do i dunno..i hate it man..i hate moi life..it sux..i m not afraid of getting scolding frm moi mother but is juz dat i damn bloody disappointed..haix..i dunno wad to sae..i dunno whether i wanna continue to work hard a not..tis results make mi not wanting to work hard anymore..work hard lyk no use at all..shiiiitt..i juz dunno wad to doo..arrghh...results r:
_____mid yr result_____
english F9
mathx E8
combine hum D7 [ss 25/50; geo 21/50]
combine sci C6[chem paper 2 21/65; physics paper 2 44/65]
POA B4
chinese B3[last yr o lvl results]

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who can tell mi wad i m suppose to do next..work hard stil get tis kinda results..wad i m suppose to do????cun even get into e course i wan..none of dem at all..helpppppp...............!!!shld i work harder..dun work harder??give up ..dun give up??i juz do not noe..haixxxx....disappointed...=<

may be i would start revising moi work??..though i think a lot abt giving up lahx..blahx..but i tink dat i m a little lucky to be back in sch n hv moi chance to take o lvl..i dun feel lyk juz giving up when i already put in so much effort..haix..contradicting.. i dunno..haix.....=<

4:20 PM;

yeah...midyr ended ytd..damn happii..heex..but also scared to get back all moi results..haix..shld i enjoy de two daes of holidae i hv or shld i kip on revising moi work??..but i dun tink i will revise bahx..heex..studii of e past two wks n im damn sick of it le..though i promise moiself tat i would slack anymore..but stil hv to rest bahx..after tis two daes i will work damn bloodly hard..heex..ytd actually going to celebrate..but ending up staying at hm n rot for e rest of e dae..haix..cuz dey kip changing plans..first say going to eat at a restaurant call koka?or wadever isit..second say go kbox den ice-skating den watch movie..third say meet at lakeside den decide..haix..den e last decision no one tell mi..so hack care lo..stay at hm n rot..anyway i was damn tired to even wan to go out..stay at hm..play maple..long time nv play le..but it was kinda of boring playing it e whole day..so sianx..den jiu read storybook lo..n nap..haix..was a boring dae ytd..toda went out wif lizheng n yufen to town..went shopping at far east first..den go to heeren to shop blahx...haix..we went to early le lahx..we wanted to go sakae sushi to eat e buffet..it is at 3..but we meet at around 11.30 at boon lay mrt..den reach orchard around 12 plus..thought we would shop for damn long..but in e end onli for a while onli..haix..ended up we hv to walk here n dere to waste time..haix..leg felt a bit pain xia..long time nv kip walking n walking for hours..somemore a bit sianx..but hv lots of fun eating at sakae sushi..hahaz..kip taking n taking..wa..was damn full xia..eat way toooo much le..until i feel lyk vomitting..heex..again long time nv eat so much things le..den we crap a lot too..after eating jiu go back den when to jp to walk for a while..cuz was stil a bit early..heex..anyway it was fun todae..heex..aiiiii..finally going to be tmrw le..heex..cuz going out wif u guys..hee..looking forward to it..hahaz..another of fun tmrw..heex..cun wait till its tmrw..hahaz...i think i will end here le..go play game..hv to enjoy e two dae of holidae i hv..den i will continue to work hard n not to slack anymore..hahax..cya buaiiiii..=>

=> looking forward to 18/05/06......

7:47 PM;

ytd e went out wif inu to jp mac dere study..meet inu at 1230 out gior but was late..sorrii gal..heex..den jia cuz flu so nv cum..aiyo..poor gal caught wif a flu..muz take care wor..heex..inu study her pOa..econ n stat..haix..all look damn tough..help her a bit in poa when she dunno..it was a revision for mi too..some reali dunno jiu msg cc to help lo..her poa also gd ma..heex..mi study physics n chem..haix..my weakest sub of all..aii..study study study den yi ban jiu msg jia for some reasons..den she also cum mac..she studii..mm..MOB?ha..another tough sub of theirs..haix..now dey learning all tis next yr i go into poly also hv tooo...arrrr..i dun wan lahx..heex..den tok tok for a while muz rest ma..inu kip toking abt angga..kzz..which i dunno de person..got c e photo b4 onli..their school de..heex..den blahx blahx all e way den go jp walk walk for a while..look at belt blahx blahx blahx..den after tat go to library dere borrow bks..manage to find one bk to read..e other one cun find..sianx diaox..den inu n jia pei mi wait for my mother to cum fetch to go out for dinner..we went to mos burger dere..drink n food..den continue tok tok tok..ha..den abt 6 jiu go back le..went out wif moi family to no signboard restaurant to eat n celebrate mother's daYy..e restaurant name change le..now e name is golden bay restaurant..hahaz..we order quite a lot of things got crab la..blahx blahx blahx..eat until so full..hee..after tat jiu go hm..cuz mi hv to study ma..sianx..but was a fun dae wor..heex.. toda bloody shui..was late for sch..cuz e damn alarm clock did xiang..my first time in my 5 yrs in jss i late for school..i wanted to kip my record damn clean u noe..no late comings..no detention..haix..so shui toda kana tis..sianx..was late onli abt 1 min..so stupid..but gd thing was not late for exam bahx..or else no time to finish paper..hee..1hr onli u noe..n to a slow person lyk mi..i hv to used up de 1hr..n if i late..confirm nv finish paper or juz ending up any hell colouring de answers..heex..paper was..mmm..okkay okkay bahx..manage to do some of it for physics but for chem quite a lot dunno how to do..was actually wad i predicted..haix..gonna do badly for midyr i think..wad e..tmrw stil got pOa paper 1...one more paper to go n i end moi midyr le..aiii..going to work hard for prelim le..cun slack anymore..think i hv slack enough tis yr..no more slacking!!!!!ha..everytime say lyk tat also de same..haix..but tis time gonna prove myslef wrong..not more slacking for tis yr..i promise promise promise..heex..think gtg le..go to revise moi pOa..dun wan tis paper to be also done badly..heex...buaiiiiiii...=>

1:30 PM;

mi here to update bloggy again..examzz abt to finish le..left wif combine sci paper1 n poa paper1..gotta do well in both papers..cuz all my paper2 sux..unable to answer qns for chem n poa cun even balance my answer..haix..wad de hack am i doin when i m studying wif frenz i dunno..mathx paper 1 n 2 was badly done too..juz wonder how am i gonna pass my midyr wif gd results..haix..ytd was leslie surprise burfdae party..it was in advance too..whether is a surprise or did he guess it i dunno..haha...but stil did hv fun..we meet at 1030 at bus 30 dere..but i was late..den when i was abt to reach i saw hy n diana cuming out from mrt station..walk wif dem to bus 30 dere to wait..waited 4 some time..thought how cum other stil not here so decided to call dem..den we know dey at supermarket dere..sianx diao..den we go find dem..when we got dere dey already bought tibits n drinks le..after tat when to buy cake[chocolate favour de wor..]den when to buy a full set of winni e pooh cushion n one t shirt for leslie..hahaz..den inu n mi went wif jia to hse first to prepare de things..while e others wait 4 leslie to cum..we order pizza for lunch den waited 4 dem to arrived..not lata de pizza man cum n we lit e candles to wait for e burfdae boy to cum..ha..we so zun..all juz in time when he came..den we sang him burfdae song blahx blahx..den we wanted to smash de cake onto leslie face de..den tink he guess it le bahx..but he was willingly to let us do it..haha..was quite fun..den we sat down tok tok plus play asshole dai dee..laugh all dae..hv fun all de..we tok abt school life n everybody is telling to cherish e time i m in sec sch..i c dem all so stress wif work i feel a little dat i m stil in sec sch..though i m veri stress wif my work..adapting to changes from n lvl formats to o lvl de..but i noe i cun compare wif e stress dey r having now at poly or jc..so i will guai guai listen to their advice to cherish my time in sec sch..heex..playing asshole dai dee was fun..but was different from wad we actually plan..playing water..haix..sorry to inu..next time would rmb to ask u all to take pic together cuz i noe it will be a long time until e next time we gather together again..n shld not hv left u alone to kip playing com..shld hv play dai dee wif punishment[drinking water]..hope we would meet up soon..may be next time go sentosa..shopping..blahx..wish ya all gd luck whether in poly or jc..hv fun n was a memorable day at jia hse..miss u guys..gtg le..hv to study...buaiii..=]

8:56 PM;

toda went to yongfa hse to study poa..had a fun dae dere..morning abt 11 lyk i n tg jiu reach yongfa hse lo..bei him bluff le..he tell others abt 1230 den cum lo..den tell mi 11..wa de..so tired man..hv to wake up early den i somemore ytd slpt at abt 2-3am lo..den hv to wake up at 9 plus..haix..reach dere nv study first go fund yongfa key to wa his secret in his drawer..but nth much lahx..hee..den after a whil kenneth cum follow by xian hong den yvonne..cp also cum..but for a while onli..after lunch she n yvonne go back cuz yvonne got tution so pei her go..den abt4plus lyk tat juliana dey all cum lo..den in e end nv study much..haha..play play..den still bbq wor..exam haben end yet..we act lyk it end le..ha..muz relax ma..cun be too stress up..help to kao food to eat..i din eat much..cuz stomach dunno y pain den eat le feel lyk vomitting e food out..haix..sianx..so much nice food to eat but cun eat..sad= ( yongfa help mi check wad happen wif de help of ziying..thx to dem..now feel abit okay le..juz tat next time cun eat too much oily food le..not good 4 mi bahx..heex..actually juliana dey all wan to go to e park to play swing however raining..sad= (den i went hm lo..cuz cun stay out too late..my mother dun allow..den i so gan dong..cuz dey all pei mi go to wait 4 taxi to go hm despite e rain..thx to dem..hope none of dem fall sick or else i will feel veri nei jiu..hv lots of fun at yongfa hse..ha..but play stil got study wor..hee..next wk examz muz jia you..den after examz can hv fun again..hee..thx again for toda to all hu help mi..heex..thx..gtg..hv to rest..buaiii..= )

11:22 PM;

one mth pluz nv write bloggy liao..got nth much to write abt..juz dat when out wif frenz to study for mid yr..got one time went wif linda to jw library to study den we c a couple dat is so..ee..dun wish to tink of it even..at first we din noe dose to r couple lor..we thought dey r bro n sis..cuz e gal is bigger size den e guy..den we saw dem kiss kiss in public..at first i din c onli linda den she ask mi c..den we shock tio lor..haix..but dere's nth we can do..ppl couple wan lyk dat..outsider cun do anything..next dae go dere..thought we wun c dem..cuz we go to lvl 3 different place..but stil c dem..we try not to look at dem..hee..on fri[28/04]take eng paper 1..was quite okay lahx..ablre to write but dunno can pass a not..hope can lo..dun wish to flunk my eng..den next few daes b4 other paper go study at pm mac dere..almost everydae bahx..muz study hard..though some frenz tell mi not nid to pia so much for midyr juz read abt 50% lyk dat but..i dun seem to do dat..haix..but i study sometimes lyk nv go into head de..lyk juz study study..haix..cun seem to memorize..or even understand bahx..haix..wed n ytd din go to sch cuz e examz r chinese n amathx..den i din take those to sub so no nid go..den went out to study lo..wed go mac dere study..ytd went yongfa hse to study..got mi karmun tg xianhong..study chem den din realli touch on ss..cuz chem a lot i dun understand..haix..den todae take chem n ss paper..tink i gonna flunk chem liao lahx..i read chem so much ytd but i stil dunno how to do e paper..so difficult..haix..hope can do well in physics bahx den pull up de marks abit..ss was quite okay lahx..shld be can pass..if cun den no choice lorx..now i left wif poa paper on next mon..mathx paper1 n phyics on tues..eng paper2 n geo on wed..mathx paper2 on thurs..following mon is combine sci paper1 n tues poa paper 1..den jiu end midyr le..haix..onli finish two paper onli..stil got so long b4 finish all papers..hope i study so hard can do well for midyr bahx..gtg le..study time..muz work hard..jiayou.!!gud luck to my frenzz too..heex..buaiii..=>

7:45 PM;